Steve, too bad the opening keeps so long. At the beginning of my practice I was really convinced it would have taken just a few years...
In some ways we reflect some of our challenges. Inner struggles are often magnified in outer events and people. Perhaps we r meant to help one another and 'see' things together as we aspire to find the portal to freedom thru the spiritual eye. As a kid we used to have this idea of how ugly a cyclops was. Now a days i get this feeling that i am looking out into a world of darkness with my physical eyes since the spiritual eye can see so much more that is really there. We r like prisoners of our own sensory jail cells. The fact that there are others out there who are making attempts of proving to themselves that what the Master's said is true is quite an impetus in our practice. We are always heavily influenced by the vibrations of others.... Their thoughts and their presence. We may be with someone for sometime and suddenly realize how much we are selves have changed form just being in their presence.
i have noticed a few results of practice though. One is this; God does not seem to follow a logical sequence of outcomes. That is; we may be gazing at the third eye for many hours but not 'see' anything. However after practice we may have this incredible feeling of calm peace and focus and thinking much clearer; as just one example. Another part of practice is that i have noticed if i am at all feeling exhaustion the practice is just not going to be good. It is hard enough holding your eyes slightly upwards without feeling tired besides. Those eyes are just going to come down. So it is very important to feel rested before endeavoring long practices keeping the eyes in an upward position. One other important part of practice is relaxation. As soon as the body starts tensing or the mind resists,we are going to have challenges. So i have to be in constant observational mode; watching my attitude towards practice. Often i have to tell my mind and body to calm down. To tense and relax body parts and possibly move in a different position.
i think most of us go into this with naive optimism only to later realize the work to be done. But it separates those who endure from those who fall off along the way. There is really no turning back now mccoy it all looks so superficial the way we see others live and the way we once did....the way we often view ourselves. We just have to appreciate the small accomplishments we make. Because; they are there if we do not expect too much. If we do expect to much we may find ourselves expecting too much of others as well. There is so much to recognize about attitude in our practice. We may even find that God has a whole different plan for us then we have conjured up in our little thought processes. There may be some other things that the Masters are working on us about and the ajna practice is a convenient way to get thru to us about other spiritual issues. SlOw by SlOw!
