Message #20311

[Shannon]

Oh yes, I am definitely working out karma this life - every life I hope.  And sincerely, I would not presume I am evolving quickly.  Not at all.  I am not even a decent yogini.  Kindness and helping others is part of a meaningful life, but haven't you ever been in a situation when you thought you were helping but you were in fact in dangerously way over your head?  I once slept with a baseball bat under my bed for a year, terrified of someone (a devotee no less) I thought I was 'helping' through friendship.  There is Love, but then there is psychotherapy.  Lol.  When I became a mom, I realized there is a difference between putting yourself out there, and putting yourself out there recklessly. No, call me a coward but it makes more sense to at least try to stay off the radar of those who might harm you becuase they live in an alternate reality.  Don't get me wrong.  In life, I still have 'fringy' friends.  I don't expect people to be perfect.  We are all a little imbalanced in different ways - me included.  But at least in regular, physical life, you have a lot more clues about a person.  The vibration is stronger - and weird quirks are more evident.  On the web, one can be blindsided.  People present themselves in a calculated way.  I use my instinct and intuition both in life and on the web.  My intuition is still not clear about you, Stevie-boy!  Ha ha.  For the past few years I have leaned toward your being a nutcase because of various things you've said - and a certain vibe -  but then there is the music, and an underlying possibility that maybe you're alright and I am overly guarded.   Not sure.  God is constantly pushing me.  Maybe time will tell.   :-)