Message #7099

[guest88]

i used to meditate daily but lost sight of what was important and became restless. i thought i was taking on to much to fast and later became turned off by the idea of meditation. i never lost touch with spirituality, just, the approach to my practice changed. i started meditating less but as time passed i began to pick it up again. i was pretty on and off but experienced a certain closeness with god all the way through, whatever choices were made. i later practiced unconventional forms of meditation and now i'm doing what i can, when i can- however and with whoever.
...your right, it's something to be grateful for. i wish i took it in more at the time but maybe i wasn't ready. i find myself looking back at my efforts where attempts were made to change my lifestyle and fully submerge in a spiritual reality and am really amazed by the miracles and heavenly support i received through out. maybe i knew this but lately i've been feeling that attraction again. i appreciate awareness and working closely with me, internally.
i think you're doing a fine job and provide a wonderful service to all you encounter. i understand what you mean when you say, you work hard in making your spiritual life a reality. there's another side to this statement though and i'm inclined to say something, even if you already know. i'm not sure how to word it correctly but i feel, if you become the goal you place your sights on- do you really need to work hard or do you simply need to be yourself? i'm not trying to dampen your efforts, i wanted to add another perspective. i feel no matter what, there's always some kind of work getting done- whether i'm aware of it or not.

thanks