i used to meditate daily but lost sight of what was important and became restless. i thought i was taking on to much to fast and later became turned off by the idea of meditation. i never lost touch with spirituality, just, the approach to my practice changed. i started meditating less but as time passed i began to pick it up again. i was pretty on and off but experienced a certain closeness with god all the way through, whatever choices were made. i later practiced unconventional forms of meditation and now i'm doing what i can, when i can- however and with whoever.
...your right, it's something to be grateful for. i wish i took it in more at the time but maybe i wasn't ready. i find myself looking back at my efforts where attempts were made to change my lifestyle and fully submerge in a spiritual reality and am really amazed by the miracles and heavenly support i received through out. maybe i knew this but lately i've been feeling that attraction again. i appreciate awareness and working closely with me, internally.
i think you're doing a fine job and provide a wonderful service to all you encounter. i understand what you mean when you say, you work hard in making your spiritual life a reality. there's another side to this statement though and i'm inclined to say something, even if you already know. i'm not sure how to word it correctly but i feel, if you become the goal you place your sights on- do you really need to work hard or do you simply need to be yourself? i'm not trying to dampen your efforts, i wanted to add another perspective. i feel no matter what, there's always some kind of work getting done- whether i'm aware of it or not.
thanks
i think that being your true self is work because we have spent so many incarnations at not being who we really are. Now we seek that awareness of what we are not what we have become because of our desires and the worlds influence. There is no quick way to enlightenment. The lazy man's path is just not going to get us there. There was nothing done on this earth without an effort behind it either now or in the distant past. There is song by Joni Mitchell. It goes like this: 'The times you impress me most is when you don't even try.' So yes there are times when we just flow and we need to enjoy that moment as it is happening and not put added effort to it. So your perspective is also important. It is possible for us to get out of balance either way. It is for friends to remind each other of such unbalances when they are apparent. i do not feel as though you have to be so careful in the way you make your observations. We are friends. Friends should be able to speak frankly. Yet we do seek to be loving in our conversations. To one sensitive as yourself....
Steve
