it seems through out the course of routine meditation, i later find myself not wanting to take the time out for stillness
even when i am called to meditate- i find a rush of anxiety... is this a part of, peeling layers? i love to meditate and think i must increase my efforts in doing so- but sometimes my mind wants to stray away- filled with unnecessary clutter-
i've gotten over it and pushed through- a bit discontent at first, later i can sink in...
this bothered me- more so yesterday than today and found that my environment indeed played affect to this... but yesterday- i made a point... which sticks with me today...
i don't want to always have to rely on that, "boost" given to us through divine inspiration- there's nothing wrong with this... i just feel there's a certain responsibility i must take as far as- being able to do it on my own- even when i don't want to... odd?
so my question is this- for the sake of exchange- and broadening horizons for all,
how do you clear the chatter in your mind?
sometimes it is easy- others not... the pull is strong- regardless of direction
i am constantly reminded of a saying i picked up at a small time job-
"aint nothin' to it- but to do it"
sure enough- i agree whole heartedly
some might say- balance dear abysmal balance- this is true- but also find that i'm not over-exerting myself... i'm still working on making meditation a daily thing-
morning/night- or whenever i am called to
i would like to say... todays meditation was great! as well as yesterdays! it seems the more i feel impatient but actually try to conquer the anxiety- the more is revealed
yesterdays meditation brought tingly hands and ringing in both ears
today i felt to tap into some sense of pureness... i felt light and wonderful
i came across this thought while meditating which helped solidify my choices- and the choices yet to come
"meditation brings the change you desire."
focus. will. encouragement. push through, on and on- with faith in greater possibilities. faith in change. faith in more