Message #37533

[Jitendra Hydonus]

From an outsider looking in your ‘visions’ often appear more like dreams Eric. Dreams to me are often garbled with surreal textures that don’t always seem real or accurate enough to describe with certainty. Ironically, somewhat like life itself. I may sometimes pick up on a memory of one during the day and try with some exasperation to recall it but usually only parts flash by. The most important dreams that are more coherent I see as more like visions that I can relay and rely on with some degree of truth. For instance seeing my mother again as I did as a child walking into her room and seeing her lovingly smile at me. There she was again young and fresh in her shorts full of joy at being happy to have me as a child. It was as though she really returned and was telling me everything was still wonderful like it was when I first came into this world and this life. Those kind of memories and visions have the added experience that comes back again as you recall as though heaven itself was trying to show you through the soul of another the love God can show us through others.

I have found that the more I meditate and tune into the love of God the more I am able to manifest such wonderful experiences. God and spirit really wants us to be happy. We just get so involved with this world we lose touch with that joy that is available to us. Although at moments I also have a feeling that my empathy and compassion is expanding when I am able to really reach out to others in prayer who are suffering… from being so pulled into this life that it has become a very real drama to them with all the duality of material reality. A friend recently commented on two relationships he had that were difficult. I mentioned to him he learned so much from them he replied;  ‘yes once burned you do not want to return to the fire.’ I understand that pain yet I also know of a certain joy that comes through even having to experience a level of suffering involved with it. It is a strange experience but even some of the most difficult and challenging experiences I’ve had… I know in them, their was an amount of soul connection I’ve had between people. Although at other times I’ve had to back away because I could only go through so much of their souls struggle with them as they could only go through so much of mine. Although, I can still recall their faces when I knew they really felt a moment of love or connection on a soul level.

I think that is the way it is when we meet these souls again sometime or have the experience of seeing these events through Gods eyes or an angels vision. We just see through a glass darkly now.
 
You know that you and I have shared innocent moments of brotherly love. I think that is why we often aren’t able to ever engage in our differences - we often speak about here on the portal- when we talk on the phone. Because on the phone we suddenly touch into the soul level again. I felt some of this with others here at the portal when I hear their voice. Kelly, mccoy and Joy included and others that I may not hear from again for a time. Yet when I see them in my souls vision or even talk to them for a short time and hear their laughter and insights I feel that joy of spirit once again bubbling up and enveloping my being.

Meeting friends from past lives often gives that initial joy of soul contact, but then we are also dragged through the struggles we encountered as well. I want to go back to those loving moments of soul contact with others I have loved in this life and who had moments of soul contact when they really loved me. But I am not able to always do that because I do not know where they are at in their souls travels now and whether they will will be receptive to our contact as they were at one time. It is good to know that some of you reading this understand me and I can still talk with you about it here.


1 Corinthians 13:12 12For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.