If I overreacted to your comment above, sorry. Maybe I didn't "get it" but it seemed somewhat passive aggressive to me.
I want to say this. I think that enlightenment is the end of all mixed feelings. Until then, we will be stuck in mixed feelings over something or other because that is the nature of mind - it is fragmentation, broken up, muddy.
There is no clarity. There is the internal friction of thoughts battling each other. The waves on the water are constantly shaking.
An enlightened person, on the other hand, does not have these internal divisions. In a sense, she is whole-ly.
Does any of that resonate with you?