Spiritual Portal

In all my recent experiences of life, whether it be meditation or just living and carrying out our activities during the day, I find myself constantly cutting into the minds activities. The brain has no end to thinking thoughts and layers of thought command our minds taking over our consciousness with much wasted nonsense and negative thoughts or reactions. Much of the time it is best to cut n and remind ourselves we are using a lot of wasted energy in a swamp of thoughts. I spend much of my day redirecting thoughts to a better purpose and ‘draining the. swamps.’

Last night I decided to go to bed early. As I layed upon my back, in the dark, I observed my thoughts. I noticed, as the body began to systematically wind down- thoughts started to branch into different directions. I believe, unfortunately, that holding on to the thoughts are what kept me anchored to my body even though I was hoping to induce an OBE. I also felt the need to control some of the thoughts because I could feel the mind propelling itself into a negative direction. Instead of allowing this thought to breathe, I would imagine a golden lotus in my chest and synchronize its radiance with my inhalation and exhalation.

When I did this, the mind would eventually drift- and I would willingly let the new thoughts emerge. It was like I was plunging, something inward revolving. Somewhere between dozing off and attempting to control the direction of thought- it was like a flat revolving plane with ever-changing sides in the ether and my, "point of awareness" was sliding onto another surface. The sensation of something being turned over, momentum, and drastic change in the mind was physical. So maybe the OBE was a success.

It made me think more on the power of thoughts and awareness. To understand we are not necessarily our thoughts, but an intimate link exists between observer and thought. It has me scratching my head, I wonder if we associate perspective with our physical bodies.
I would also like to say that I have always enjoyed the alchemical process with changing the direction of ones thoughts. I wonder if pranayama or Kriya also includes the practice of, "transmutation" or even, "elimination"