Into Blue

[Jitendra Hydonus]

We welcome Into Blue hoping that we will always have her presence on the forum. It is hard to maintain private relationships with everyone that is why we are happy that Into Blue contributes so much to this forum in a public expression.

Steve Hydonus

[prabhatsinha]

I can feel her sincere attitude
prabhat

[Katze]

Sometimes we are not able to be here and post as often as we might wish ~
however, even when I am not here on the forum, I keep all of you in my thoughts and prayers.

Thank you Steve, namaste2All and Prabhat for your kind words and for keeping me in your thoughts.

peace & love,
Into Blue

[Jitendra Hydonus]

I remember Nikki, she came across some kind of demonic being (a criminal psychopath) who took advantage of her good nature and willingness to help, unfortunately with a very violent ending. A few devotees questioned why the Gurus did not protect her. It was probably some kind of inevitable karma.

I do not remember any specific religious or spiritual views, maybe she only expressed them here.

I'm also going to share an unsettling episode involving Nikki which was written on one of the deceased boards. This is something that I remember, not exactly but clearly enough.

There was one member who showed up, and started writing things about Nikki, first on past incarnations: she had been a pirate with an earring; she had been a farmer in Russia, drinking milk diluted with water and potatoes, sat at the table with the family. Something else I do not remember. Very clear scenes of past incarnations. Then something happened. The member started to write desultorily something about what he/she had seen, in a restless and almost scared way. She hinted that he/she saw something terrible in the future, then ceased to write and perhaps deleted the posts.

I remember clearly, from what the clairvoyant member wrote, he or she saw the future and saw Nikki's demise, although not saying it explicitly. Again, pretty unsettling.

She was murdered a few years later.

Brother mccoy, Nikki used two main pseudo names while on the earth plain and an administrator here at the portal;  ‘Katze’at the beginning when we started this site together and later ‘Into Blue.’ You will see that by the post ( in blue) just above this one. Nikki and I both spent time together at two other sites before this one and while this one was created. We quickly became friends after I met her at O’ hare airport in Chicago. I think I may know the member you are talking about in this text above by you. It was Annie. Although she may have used a different name at the (now)  deceased site you are speaking of. I most likely will remember Annie’s pseudo name as well.

You may wonder why I would take such an interest in Nikki. There are several reasons which I will soon explain. If possible I would like to put together some missing links of a puzzle that surrounds these two women who I believe are friends of not just one life but others as well. I am very happy you took an interest in writing about these two women here. Since they both became friends of other members here
( and of me personally) and Eric remembers them as well and some of the unusual experiences we had with them.

In life I have found that much of my life is planned out by higher forces then myself.

Jitendra (Steve Hydonus)

[mccoy]

Yes, I think Annie was the name, is she such a clairvoyant or do I remember it all wrong?

I'm glad you had the opportunity to meet Nikki before she left her body, I remember good vibrations from her, she's going to start back with renewed enthusiasm and some stronger traits developed after the violent karmic event she incurred, more determined.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Yes, I think Annie was the name, is she such a clairvoyant or do I remember it all wrong?

I'm glad you had the opportunity to meet Nikki before she left her body, I remember good vibrations from her, she's going to start back with renewed enthusiasm and some stronger traits developed after the violent karmic event she incurred, more determined.

I did not hear that she passed with a violent event. Her friend also spent time on the portal here and after I had not seen her in sometime explained to me she made her transition because of cancer.

I actually met Annie mccoy. I’m not at liberty to speak of my experiences with her. It would be nice to see her again. I’ve had some people return back in my life after long periods of not seeing them. We must remember that relationships can be very subjective and one person's perspective on what happened in a relationship is often quite different than the others.This is true in all relationships; business, romance or friendships. Quite often in our life we find that in our experiences with others, it is more likely to obfuscate people than enlighten them and so we find ourselves taking different paths. That does not mean we can never or will never cross paths again.

[mccoy]

Steve, Nikki's demise has been discussed at length in the older deceased forum (yogananda.net).

What was reported there, with many details which I verified via the internet, is that Nikki used to work as a volunteer in a canteen for homeless people. She was approached by this guy and eventually wanted to help him. She took him to her home and treated him like a brother. Eventually, she must have realized his real nature and spoke with her father about sending the dude out of her house. But she went there alone, not with her father. They found her strangled in her apartment and later the police jailed the guy, who had previously served time, while running away in her car with her dog. Sorry if I illustrate such details, but she was also raped, as I recall it.

I believe Annie must not have told the truth to save you the crude details.

Maybe, if you remember Nikki's surname, some details are still retrievable on the internet.

One particular devotee, I remember a black lady who was her friend, was very upset that she was not protected by Yogananda.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Steve, Nikki's demise has been discussed at length in the older deceased forum (yogananda.net).

What was reported there, with many details which I verified via the internet, is that Nikki used to work as a volunteer in a canteen for homeless people. She was approached by this guy and eventually wanted to help him. She took him to her home and treated him like a brother. Eventually, she must have realized his real nature and spoke with her father about sending the dude out of her house. But she went there alone, not with her father. They found her strangled in her apartment and later the police jailed the guy, who had previously served time, while running away in her car with her dog. Sorry if I illustrate such details, but she was also raped, as I recall it.

I believe Annie must not have told the truth to save you the crude details.

Maybe, if you remember Nikki's surname, some details are still retrievable on the internet.

One particular devotee, I remember a black lady who was her friend, was very upset that she was not protected by Yogananda.

This does not make sense. Nikki was married and did not live with her parents. If you verified it on the internet let me know how? And Nikki did not have a dog when we spent time following Amma’s gatherings around these United States, nor did she ever express a desire to have a pet or dog. Furthermore, she was older and in all the time I spent with her she never discussed having parents. Never. She also never expressed any desire to me to serve the homeless. Her spiritual interests in angels and creative efforts at her holiday cards and helping her sister ( with her business) and kids were the mainstream of her life. She also enjoyed her friends and we spend time at the SRF temples and touring with Amma. If you have information to verify these preposterous stories, tell me what state in the United States this happened, because I know where Nikki lived.

Annie used the name Blue Nova at this site and at the old site you played such a role at.

[mccoy]

OK Steve, things cleared up, at this point there it's quite evident that we are speaking of different people with the same moniker.

The Nikki I mean was pretty young about 20-30 I'd say, so she's a totally different person. She did have different monikers, Gedeon (or similar) in the older forum, Nikki (her real name) in the younger one. Bluenova was Bluenova even in the other forum, not Annie that I can remember.

I'm sorry anyway that both nikkies had to die unpleasant deaths, but it is reasonable to think that now their karma is cleared and they can move on with renewed spiritual energy.

The clairvoyance episode involving the younger Nikki is still puzzling me to date.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Well this much I can tell you; the Annie I knew was ‘Blue Nova.’ And the moniker Nikki used at both sites was ‘Into Blue’ as I pointed out before. She also used ‘Katze’.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Well this much I can tell you; the Annie I knew was ‘Blue Nova.’ And the moniker Nikki used at both sites was ‘Into Blue’ as I pointed out before. She also used ‘Katze’.

Blue Nova probably was Annie. She was here because I met her. If I’m getting this correctly you are saying that Blue Nova (Annie) was making some psychic conclusions of what was happening to another member at an old site. She also made such conclusions about my life. It appears that you intend to stop the conversation here mccoy. That’s ok. It would be nice to know your conclusions, since I spent much time knowing these two and was left with little to no understanding myself about them. Although i did enjoy a wonderful friendship with Nikki who appears to be a different Nikki than you are talking about unless she was also called Katze or Into Blue. Although like many other mysteries in life sometimes you have to just let it go and move on with current life encounters. We (me perhaps) can often obsess about the past when the present moves on before us and the challenges with what is present is enough to attempt to understand.

[mccoy]

Steve, I would be willing to add conclusions, but I don't have them. I don't remember exactly who was the poster who foresaw something terrible in the young nikki's future. At that time, I was only very skeptical about the references to former lives. Until the murder occurred.
It is clear she was not the same Nikki whom you met though. I may remember her last name and write more, but it's more likely I won't. A long time passed, and I went thru many things.

And, bluenova, I only knew her from her posts, sometimes they were written in a peculiar way, and sometimes she almost appeared like having some mental distress.

That's all I remember, unfortunately, both fora (yogananda.net and yoganandaji.org) have been deleted from the internet.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

Steve, I would be willing to add conclusions, but I don't have them. I don't remember exactly who was the poster who foresaw something terrible in the young nikki's future. At that time, I was only very skeptical about the references to former lives. Until the murder occurred.
It is clear she was not the same Nikki whom you met though. I may remember her last name and write more, but it's more likely I won't. A long time passed, and I went thru many things.

And, bluenova, I only knew her from her posts, sometimes they were written in a peculiar way, and sometimes she almost appeared like having some mental distress.

That's all I remember, unfortunately, both fora (yogananda.net and yoganandaji.org) have been deleted from the internet.

Yes mccoy having spent quite a bit of time chatting with ‘Blue Nova ‘ and then meeting her in person for a short time, I agree with your assessment completely. I would only add that her ‘peculiar way’ that you speak of was more of a uniqueness that she carried with her. And yes, I concur, she had some over reactions to life’s dramas that set her off. Besides being ‘Blue Nova’ she left here and came back later as ‘ Yoshi ‘ and then eventually left us completely when it was my understanding she got married again. I believe I will meet up with her again on perhaps another journey in another life as we shared mutual karmic backgrounds from past episodes in different garments on the earth plain.

While I do not always agree with your observations I always look forward to hearing them because they also help me understand my encounters and experiences.

[guest587]

IntoBlue or Katze was so nice to me here and free from judgement for my sharing. It was effortless.

Yoshi and Blue Nova brought me to this forum and wanted only to help me develop my spiritual senses. She was very kind and loving and lots of fun.

Everything else was drama I had not participated in- but can say there were indeed conflicting personalities.

Recently my girl dog was attacked by another girl dog. These were two alpha personalities brought into close proximity of one another.

Can I say it's the same for Into Blue and Blue Nova? No, but I can say I witnessed the clash of personalities on the forum. I think I witnessed people give Anne a hard time for trying to express her self creatively.

She talked with lots of "...'s" And tried connecting with her imagination- speaking from her soul which is not a bad thing or something we can say we have full comprehension of. We might all benefit understanding that inner child and the purity of art and expression.

This is my experience and I am grateful she had faith in me and shared this forum with me.

Steve, we've had our share of differences but continue to try and work things out. No doubt my Ego has gotten in the way of harmonious experiences here.

I appreciate you though, despite our worldly beliefs.

[Jitendra Hydonus]

IntoBlue or Katze was so nice to me here and free from judgement for my sharing. It was effortless.

Yoshi and Blue Nova brought me to this forum and wanted only to help me develop my spiritual senses. She was very kind and loving and lots of fun.

Everything else was drama I had not participated in- but can say there were indeed conflicting personalities.

Recently my girl dog was attacked by another girl dog. These were two alpha personalities brought into close proximity of one another.

Can I say it's the same for Into Blue and Blue Nova? No, but I can say I witnessed the clash of personalities on the forum. I think I witnessed people give Anne a hard time for trying to express her self creatively.

She talked with lots of "...'s" And tried connecting with her imagination- speaking from her soul which is not a bad thing or something we can say we have full comprehension of. We might all benefit understanding that inner child and the purity of art and expression.

This is my experience and I am grateful she had faith in me and shared this forum with me.

Steve, we've had our share of differences but continue to try and work things out. No doubt my Ego has gotten in the way of harmonious experiences here.

I appreciate you though, despite our worldly beliefs.

I think I’ve gained some spiritual insights over the years… one of them that has helped me the most is that I seem to be more and more grateful for everything and everyone who has entered my life. I’m sure I would have done things different if I knew now what i didn’t know then. But isn’t that the whole purpose of what we are going through here in this school for the spiritually retarded? We may graduate and then attend other programs in the astral and causal realms. I look forward to that. This dense reality, with its hard knocks is often frustrating but like this life; I often look back and miss most of the people I spent time with, and the others were experienced as shared lessons that were only meant to help our spiritual growth.

While you and I came to different conclusions regarding the two female dogs … we have experienced good friends here and wonderful times together with many unique characters and personalities who charm our memories.

Jai Gurus and thanks to the Angelic guardians of Spirit!