Dear Casey,
But the people who make it past those illusions realize that "God", the Creator of All, the Source of the Universe, is not making or watching us lose and hurt and cry. This source is in all things.. God "is" in the lost loved one, God "is" the pain in our hearts, God "is" the tears rolling down our face. We do not experience things because of or in spite of God.. God experiences things through *us*.
Sorry, I'm probably rambling and I don't want to "stir the pot" for you spiritually if that's not what you want to hear right now.. the most important thing is just to know I send sweetest thoughts and prayers your way.
Lucky this bit of communication is incredibly insightful. It was appreciated by me and probably others as well.
Steve