Message #8750

[guest66]

I disappeared again. I'm sorry for that, but I had to find myself before I could come here. I'm still having a doubt-fest in my head, but I can't have a full on melt at the moment, because I'm staring at the four year anniversary of Chris' passing (Friday) and feeling all of the emotions again. Memories come to me clearly, unbidden, unwanted. Sleep again an impossibility. Can't wait for this nightmare period to be over (get through this Friday, get through next, and we're done for another year.) Next Friday brings a first, the first of my friend Kim's birthdays where she won't be on this plane to receive an email. Can't even begin to contemplate that right now, so I'm just focused on getting to/through Friday. If it's not too much to ask, could I request that you continue to hold me in your prayers at this ridiculously difficult time?

Thanks,

Casey